Showing posts with label Africa. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Africa. Show all posts

Tuesday, February 03, 2015

To lift my eyes...



I'm not gonna lie, Africa can wear me right out.  See Exhibit A above, "The Road to Our House."

I'm not very good at remembering this, but it does dawn on me occasionally that I do actually get to choose where my eyes focus.

Here are five good things from the last few days...

1.  I watched two Muslim women share their sandwiches with a Catholic Sister on the 6 hour bus trip to Nairobi.

2.  I saw the setting moon hanging heavily over hills that would soon be lit by morning.  The moonlight cast shadows on my 5am bedroom floor.

3.  The crazy washed out bridge at the bottom of the long hill that connects us to the road to town HAS BEEN REPAIRED, AND a grader has been dealing with the other horrible bits on our way home.

4.  I bought a great big box of fresh produce, (bright, juicy mangos, tangy passion fruit and much more,) for a very reasonable price, and shared motherhood tales with the slender young mama whose veggie stand I frequent.

5.  Yesterday I enjoyed a long and pleasant lunch with someone who has prayed for us for going on thirty years.  We had never, ever met before.  Imagine!

Monday, February 03, 2014

Coming Home to the Farm



We were away from Africa for two months.  It was enough time to do all we did.  Enough time to celebrate Thanksgiving, multiple family milestone's including my mom's 80th birthday, attend fundraisers, speak here and there, connect with donors, revel in family and marvelous friends, work toward a second son's wedding, engage in Advent, give poetry readings, meet with our Board of Directors, enjoy (and also struggle with) Christmas in America, and finally, wonderfully, to help throw an outstanding wedding celebration.

Careening out of those packed weeks...

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

And Some Days Are Lower Than Others

There are times, I have to admit, I tire of you.
I tire of your demands-- the way you take and take and take.
It seems that our efforts to placate you come to naught.

We travel.
Not for leisure.
We travel because there are hidden places where friends struggle.
And you make it very hard.

"He was dead," a dear one said.
"Perhaps thirty minutes before I got there."
"A shot to the head.  I could tell by where the blood was in the cab.
They dragged his body into the bushes.  I guess he didn't stop when they ambushed his car."

Do stop.
(Always stop.)
Who cares about the money?

And how about that fevering one?
Wracked and reeling.
Pounded.
Malaria beating the crap out of her.

Because she just loves hanging out in South Sudan?
Because she has nothing better to do?
She gives.
You take.

And last week,
in the crush of traffic.
The four lanes made six lanes, made eight lanes,
made I-don't-know-how-many lanes.

That man's body
fallen there.
No blanket.
No ambulance.

One casual policeman standing
as the rest of us
veered slightly round him.

I turned my eyes and thought of his family
hearing the news.
(However they finally do.)

Who do you think you are?
So ravenously needy.
So brutal, so broken
and so beautiful.

Oh, Africa.
Shall we at least try
to be friends?


-lisa, 26 February, 2013

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Hello, Africa.

I woke up yesterday to no internet.  That's not entirely unusual in Tanzania.  It happens fairly frequently and it's usually rectified relatively quickly.  I didn't panic.

Throughout the course of the day, I noticed the phone service was up to some of its usual antics.  Messages would apparently send yet not be received without a long delay of up to several hours.  Phone calls would cut off.  Service would be unavailable.  I was able to get several calls through to my internet provider, though, only to hear that there was a major issue going on that had large parts of town off the net.  I still didn't panic.

Monday, April 02, 2012

Relief

The land sighs
heat rolls on incessantly
and she
stirs uncomfortably
under the weight

We groan in solidarity
achy joints and clammy
we grieve
a gritty wind
on our skin

Some time before dawn
the clouds that have
attempted this advance daily
finally carry enough
ballast to arrive

Surging over
incalescent turbulence
engaging
a rising wall
of sullen heat

They are here

Cool descends
with each drop
drumming on my roof
clearly melodic
songs of earth

Life stirs
a fever broken
some hundred thousand flying ants
rise sparkle-winged
bobbing in the new washed light

-lisa, 2 April, 2012





Thursday, August 04, 2011

Photo Update

We've had 15 house guests in the last couple of weeks so I've been a little too busy to think, let alone write.

We took 11 of them on a "Safari with a Purpose" and Heather's been snapping photos. She's 12 and has her first camera. Here's a little selection to serve as a photo journal update. All credit to Heather, with thanks for permission to use her pics :-)


Day is done


Gold


The land falls away


Taking it in


Em's joy


Car rides


Bright eyes

Monday, December 06, 2010

It's Good to be Outside

We leave today for a week of living outside. We have some small projects we're involved with in distant places and we need to get round to visit and catch up with folks from time to time.

Happily for us, this means we'll be in Loita this week. The roads are hard and long to get there but..

Being out in Creation is very soul-restoring.

Looking forward to that.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

This is How it Works... or Doesn't (the joys of transition shock)

So I was in the States for about 3 weeks and WOW!

What I just couldn't get over was just how nice everything was and, maybe mostly, how everything just works there. Smooth roads, wide sidewalks, easy shopping, hot water, cold water, electricity, street lights, the postal system... you name it!

Funny, eh? I mean, I do carry an American passport and I do go there about every 2 years and I have lived there plenty and I am 48 and fairly bright... But I just found the whole experience so surprising and kind of overwhelming.

For instance...

I was borrowing my parents little old grey Volvo ( I love that thing!) for a couple of days while I was up to Santa Barbara and a girlfriend decided we needed to go shopping to pick up a birthday gift for me. (Nice idea!) We finished and I jumped in the car and found that it wouldn't start. Turned over but wouldn't fire up. So I called my dad and the call went straight through because there were absolutely no problems with the network. I asked him to listen as I tried to start the car and he decided it sounded like the fuel wasn't getting where it needed to go.

Dad called AAA and they said OF COURSE they would come help me immediately because it was Dad's car and he's been a member for 30 years. The AAA guy was there in about 20 minutes and he was so nice and I never once worried that he might be incompetent or untrustworthy. He cheerfully hauled the car away to a mechanic across town who specializes in Volvos with whom I'd just spoken and who came with the highest recommendations. (I immediately regretted having not told the AAA guy that his tattoos were beautiful. Sheesh. How could I let him get away without that?)

My dad called his Volvo guy down in Pasadena and described the situation. He said it sounded like the fuel pump relay. It wasn't too long before the SB Volvo guy had listened to the car and he told my dad that it sounded like the fuel pump relay. All these phones working and intelligent diagnostics confirming each other and efficient systems! It just boggled me. But that wasn't enough. The car was repaired quickly and for a reasonable price and I got it back in a matter of just a few hours. I just couldn't get over it. It was so simple and safe and honest and well done.

Now, I'm not going to complain about how things are here in East Africa. I love Africa and there is plenty here to cherish. But this simple efficiency, proficiency and trustworthiness surrounding my little Volvo scene, well, that's not how things go when we have car issues here. My word. The number of places Byron has to go to just to get a spark plug that will actually spark... The days spent chasing spares... The mechanics that have made him almost lose his mind... Let's just say that Africa has other strengths to enjoy.

You might say that landing home again in Tanzania has felt a little bumpy in some ways. Transition is always harder when I'm not expecting it to be anything but easy. And it's the funniest little things that get to me. But I came up with a symbolic gesture to help me embrace it all...

I hadn't cut my nails short for the last couple of weeks before I left Tanzania for the wedding in North Carolina and, on the day before the ceremony, I joined Tait and her mom and the other bridesmaids for a manicure. (A manicure!) I had a bit of length to my nails and, I must say, I liked the way my hands prettied up. Over the course of my visit, I managed to keep them nice and I returned to Africa with hands that don't really go with the circumstances of this life. You know, I chop my nails short here, don't put anything on them at all, and try to remember lotion from time to time.. That's what works for me and I'm happy with it.

So, after a few days of bumping into the roughness of transition every time I turned around, I sat down with finger nail polish remover and my nail clippers. Back to reality-- the reality of the life I've chosen. I smiled with every snip, snip.

Hello, Africa... I'm home :-)

Friday, July 23, 2010

Stars

It's just that I wasn't expecting it
In my gauzy mesh tent
With the warm breeze blowing through

I wasn't thinking of anything but
You know, rolling over in the night
Finding a new comfy spot

But I happened to open my eyes
And, oh!

The thin black lace of tangled thorn tree
Held back a vibrant sky
So heavy and bright it startled me

Breathless and suddenly awake
All I could feel was
Thank you

Friday, June 04, 2010

Sometimes All the Stupid Things...

Sometimes all the stupid things that go wrong become kind of a comedy. Or a tragedy. Or maybe a melodrama.

It's just so discouragingly "normal" that the trailer we waited for months to be made finally came home today and immediately has to be re-built in our drive because of all the things that weren't done right. Never mind the fact that it needs to be packed tomorrow and pulled out on safari the following day. Just never you mind that.

Tension was up at our house today as we played catch up on preparations to take a team from the U.S. out into Maasai. We've been pacing it all pretty well, but we made a last minute trip to Kenya on Wednesday/Thursday. Looking over the schedule for the next few weeks, we realized Colin's rugby game on Wednesday might be the only one we can get to. (Reminder: he's at boarding school 7 hours away.) TREVOR, sweet second-born, just arrived last Sunday night and he had never even been up to Colin's school. We grabbed the chance, jumped in the car and made a run for it. Then we grabbed Colin and brought him home a day early for midterm. It was great.

But that just meant that we had to do 2 days of work today and we'll need to do 2 more tomorrow. It's not so bad, really. I shouldn't complain... And I have to admit that I thought we navigated the stress quite well, all things considered.

And yet, as I climbed into bed, I was more aware of the stupid things than I was of any of the things that were good.

Two things happened to change that. Jesse sent a little note and asked me if I had seen that you can go on line and pre-order my book, Approaching God. I had no idea so when I saw my wee book on Amazon, I had a little moment. I just sort of gazed at it and thought, "It must be true, then. This book is going to be published."

Then Trevor stuck his head in the door to say good night and reported that he'd just received a note from Jesse saying he had dropped off one of his hand-made drums at a music shop in Santa Barbara. While in there, he noticed that 2 older cajons he'd crafted had sold, which pleased him. But that wasn't all. It was Jack Johnson who bought them. Jack! Trevor had other news from Jesse--just random stuff about a great evening he had with friends at the Mumford and Sons show in LA. It was all cheery stuff that made me giggle.

A book. Some drums. Some funny things to laugh about. It all reminded me that the stupid things may be truly vexing, but the lovely things outweigh them. Now I blow out my candle and give this day a parting hug. It feels so much better than kicking it on its way out.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Bits and Pieces as the Rain Pours Down


The pounding of the rain against our windows is a beautiful thing. On Sunday morning I was walking with my friend, Tait, through the dry grass on the hills near her home. As we looked out from her verandah later (with the good smell of biscuits baking in the oven) we spoke our thanks that rain was on its way. The sky was giving it away and we were happy with anticipation.

Rain. Yes! We bless these rains and pray that they come in just the right measure. May they do all the good they need to do, and cause no destruction.

In other happy news, technology was working and on our side the other day. We can't always say that. We often have no electricity as the city rations power, and no electricity means no internet. Even when the power is back, the internet is often fickle. This happens for multiple reasons, most of which we are not privy to. However, spotty coverage at our house was recently traced to the fact that a neighbor burned down his hedge. His hedge is just below the cable that brings internet to us and it kind of melted here and there so it was moody about letting signals pass.

Back to the day that all systems were (mostly) go...

I got a text message from Colin that night as I was lying curled up on our bed under the mosquito net watching The West Wing on computer with Byron and Heather.

"Call me," it read. Colin (in Kenya) had just missed a call from Trevor (in San Francisco) and he didn't have a way to reach his brother and ask him to try again. He wanted me (in Tanzania) to let Trevor know he was now standing by for the call. But power had just gone off here so I wasn't on line either.

We brake for brother time so the DVD was paused as we went outside to pull-start our generator into action. Restoring power temporarily, we were able to get on-line and, lo and behold, Skype was in a good mood that evening as well so we raised Trevor pretty much immediately.

"Call your brother," I said, so pleased to be able to connect them.

We turned off the generator and went back to our laptop TV time while Trevor Skyped out from his computer to Colin's phone 10,000 miles away. They had a great talk and I grinned at the way we worked together to beat the TIA factor.

I'll round this post off with a great quote from home school today. Heather and I were talking about potatoes and how Columbus had no idea what a future they would have in Europe when he hauled the "new" food back from the New World. Basking in the glow of the goodness of potatoes, Heather gushed softly, "I love potatoes... greasy, fried, salty potatoes." I could see the warm appreciation of the humble spud shining in her eyes.

Life is good!

Friday, October 09, 2009

Watching Africa Blow Away

We drive across the East African plains and wonder at the moonscape they have become. Along the roadside, the trees stand brittle and covered in a heavy coat of dust. The faces of the little shacks along the way are the same. Fine, powdery dust has lifted easily in the dry wind and painted everything a lifeless brown. The monotony of color is strange and disturbing.

Even from my desk by the window in my bedroom at our house set in a watered garden, I can see the dust. Carried on the tired wind, it billows against Mt. Meru, the quiet volcanic mountain that our city sprawls at the base of. Instead of misty blankets of moisture, Meru is shrouded in a gritty cloud of dust. Though I don't see it coming through my window, I feel the build up on my keyboard and stop to wipe it often.

Africa, it seems, is blowing away.

Even the elephants are skinny. We passed four or five herds as we traveled last month and I was saddened by their sunken contours. BBC reports that livestock and wildlife alike are dying in droves. We pray, asking God to protect them and to not allow human life to be lost.

"The worst drought in ten years." That's what they're saying.

Now, everyone knows that East Africa experiences cyclical droughts, but this is different. A combination of man-made and natural factors have collided to set up the perfect non-storm. No rain of significance over the last couple of years and 2 harvests in a row have failed now.

"And, what will happen?" I wonder to myself. Will East Africans stop felling the trees that draw their rains? Will the farmers finally learn to protect their topsoil by ploughing with the contour of the land instead of up and down the hillside? Will the pastoralists who have lost so much grazing land reduce their herds and stop stripping the fragile environment right down to bare earth?

And will the world notice?

The middle aged folks in wealthy western countries are the kids who passionately attended or at least watched the Live Aid concerts back in the mid-eighties. Stirred by famine in Ethiopia, Bob Geldof's dream event raised about 150 million pounds in financial assistance. Those who hold the world's discretionary funds have been here when they were young and unstoppable.

But what came next? HIV/AIDS followed on the heals of famine and while it spread quietly at first, it spread quickly. By the end of the nineties, Africa was in full blown crisis and Bono was asking that we drop the debt. In a staggeringly massive effort of evil, Rwanda invited her citizens to kill each other and, en mass, they did. Since then, that bastion of stability, Kenya, has shown the real shape of her heart by dividing along tribal lines and killing several thousand of her own during elections. And Zimbabwe... What a mess. Corruption of all sorts all over the continent? Yes. All the while, global warming and global economic crisis have piled their burdens of destruction onto this continent that should be plenty able to feed herself.

Geldof's concert-going activists are tired and in financial crisis. They've grown up and have all the mortgages and car loans to prove it. They have kids with expensive education bills and many of them have lost their jobs, their homes and/or their retirement funds. Their sure foundations have crumbled underneath them and there is fear in its stead.

BBC can tell us this is the worst drought in East Africa's last decade, but does anyone out there have the stamina to help her face it?

I sit at my desk, watching Africa blow away, and pray mercy.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Bless Them as They Go!


This morning, bright and early, the family set off on a 10 day trip with a team of visitors. There are 15 of them all together and we've been pretty flat-out in prep for their time. It's been really good and really such a pleasure to host this group of students.

Now I'm looking around as the dust of their departure settles and making a 180 degree turn toward a whole different task. Much as I would have loved to join them on this trip, I am writing toward a deadline of the end of August and I can't actually afford the time.

They will have an amazing adventure, I am certain. They will see and experience and learn and grow so much. May it be beautiful; a lasting blessing in their lives.

Heather, above, blew me a kiss as they pulled out of the drive.

I'll be missing them so much!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Sidai



"Sidai" is a Maa word used for good, well-being, pretty, beautiful.

It's fitting, then, that we had 2 days away filled with good friends, well-being, pretty places and beautiful views. We slipped away to Sidai Camp and just chilled for a couple of days.

Time for contemplative meditation, poetry and reading alone. Time for the togetherness of friendship and campfires and meals shared.

Esidai :-)

Friday, June 26, 2009

Settling In

We're home :-)

It will take a while for my heart and mind to catch up with the emotions of it all.

In the mean time, I am struck by simple things we consider normal here that are not a part of our days in Europe or the States.

Here's my short list of things I do regularly that maybe you don't do...

1. Filter the water twice. First round to remove fluoride (highest levels in the world here and will leach calcium from my bones) and second round to remove bacteria.

2. Wash my fruits and veg with slightly bleachy water to kill germs before I put the produce away.

3. Wash hands even before breakfast.

4. Raise a lot of our meat in the form of very cute bunnies. (My apologies to any vegetarian or vegan friends.)

5. Buy fresh/raw milk from a friend and boil it on the stove before letting it cool and putting it in fridge.

6. Consider whether or not I am free to wear trousers depending on what people group I'm going to be with.

7. Bake bread 2 or 3 times a week.

8. Crack each egg I'm going to use into a cup before adding to the bowl of ingredients just in case it's a bad egg. I once had 6 out of 12 eggs hold partially formed dead chicks. Not so fun...

9. Fall asleep on weekends hearing loud outdoor church crusades happening. Wake up early to the Mosque call.

10. Make a thermos of chai for our watchman last thing every night before I go to bed.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Friendship Refreshes (or Morning with Dave)

Byron and I walked over to the local coffee shop for a 7:45 date with an old friend. When we were first married and living in Santa Barbara, Byron worked for Dave White (and Dan Ribbens) while I was finishing my degree. I finished my degree and we left for Africa in October of that year.

That was 1984 :-)

Dave looked exactly the same to me; tall and fit and smiling. We hugged and grinned and figured out that we last saw each other something like 21 years ago.

The morning flew by as we caught up with each other's lives. It is absolutely astounding to hear Dave's stories of the last few years. We sat there in awe of the grace, joy and integrity so vividly shining.

An added pleasure was that we got to listen instead of talk. Sometimes, we get really tired of hearing ourselves explain what we're doing in Africa. As Byron says, we get so bored of our own story.

But Dave did want to hear about us as well. As we blathered on about what we're excited about, what we're dreaming toward, what is inspiring us and what is floating our boats, Dave was listening with pure pleasure on his face.

"I LOVE this!" he said. "You guys have BIG dreams!"

I suppose it sounds ridiculous but there are times when it's good to be reminded that our dreams are good, exciting and worth going after.

The needs in Africa... Well, they can just stop you right in your tracks. Our efforts on that continent... Well, they can just strike us a pathetically small.

Dave's enthusiasm for the dreams in our hearts and the way we're already realizing parts of them was refreshment on the way.

Friendship kindled and dreams shared, it makes a difference, doesn't it?

Monday, April 27, 2009

Wild Hope Stories

I just wanted to remind folks that I also blog for Wild Hope. While I haven't managed to keep that site up the way I keep maintain this personal/family blog, I have posted almost 50 stories on it in the last couple of years. So, if you'd like to hear more about what Wild Hope is up to, Karibuni! Oh, that means, "Welcome" in Swahili :-)

Check Wild Hope's blog HERE

Thanks for reading!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Petty Theft and Sniffing Glue

So the side mirror was stolen off the car today.

I can't say for sure exactly when it happened. I was in and out of a couple of shops and back to the Land Cruiser in between. I even moved it up 50 meters when I saw a different parking spot open so that I'd be closer to the butchery and the car would be safer.

Here's the thing...

There are hundreds of street kids in Arusha. It's a very sad thing. And usually, one or two of them make a big show of helping you find a parking spot and then promising to guard you car. I don't really feel good about giving to them but I usually do. I do because I would like my car to be safe from little things like having the side mirror taken off. I don't give much. What I give would be about what you'd pay for a chapati. Or a bus fare. Some times I'm organized enough to give them a bunch of bananas instead.

But last week I was in the waiting room at Byron's physical therapy session and I saw a big poster discouraging the giving of money to street kids. Why? Because they spend the money to sniff glue. I know this. But I give to them anyway because I fear for the car if I don't. And I feel for them, too. I don't even want to think about how hard their lives are.

When the boys crowded around me, looking for a little hand-out, I thought about that poster and how I really shouldn't be giving them money. I was conflicted and I decided not to give them any coins.

When I told Byron about the missing mirror, he wasn't too amused. He considers the coins a worthwhile insurance plan. As he pointed out, if I had given 50 cents, we wouldn't now be spending $50 for a replacement mirror.

Point taken.

But I don't want to give money for glue any more. I'm going to have to start thinking a little more creatively on this one...

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Dessert First (and Byron's back slowly improves)


Today I had dessert first, which is to say that I read my pleasure reading before my work reading. It felt sort of luxurious to just read for the joy of it. But it was Sunday and the pleasant verandah at Sidai was telling me that this is what a Sunday morning away is for.

Last week was a bit of a blur to me. Most of our emotional energy in that time went into managing this pain that was radiating down through Byron's sciatic nerve to his calf and foot. It was just no fun. In fact, it was quite hard.

Can I just qualify that by saying that both of us are acutely aware that debilitating pain in the leg is a very small problem compared to what most of sub-Saharan Africa deals with. So Byron and I are well convinced that his pain isn't too important in the scheme of things, but it sure was throwing a wringer into life for us. I was surprised by how much work we got done despite Byron's condition, but I was distracted from most everything, worried for Byron and discouraged by the ramifications that this much pain could apply to our up-coming time in Portugal and the States.

And so it was that, after a full Friday morning of therapy and doctors appointments and x-rays and amped up pain medication, we finally made it over to Ciska and Ian's house to leave for a weekend away at one of the camps under their care. This has been in the works for a long time. We wondered, in the days before, if Byron's pain would cancel the trip, but it didn't.

We didn't DO a lot this weekend and that was just right. We mostly enjoyed the beautiful setting, our kids and the friends we were there with.

For my part, I was thankful that no speeding lorries knocked me off the tarmac and that, once we got into camp, I had a very nice verandah and a selection of good books to enjoy. Byron was none-the-worse for the car ride (he was lying down for a lot of it) and he relaxed, too.

Reality sets back in tomorrow. We are entering our last full week here before the great journey to the other side and there is a TON to do.

Blech. I don't look forward to being away from home for so long. But... Joy! I look forward to the friends and family we will see :-) Hugging our older boys... coming soon!

Monday, March 16, 2009

By "Beautiful" I Mean BEAUTIFUL (and Byron's back hurts)


It's beautiful at the springs. We camped there Saturday night with Tait and Hunter and Tehur (and Colin and Heather.)

Byron's back has taken a nose dive after the last 3 weeks of too many long hours on bad roads and too much heavy work, but even he was happy to be there. Better to rest on a blanket under the trees than to lie on the rug in the living room and get tempted by all the work he thinks he should be doing. But the drive home was painful for him.

We saw the physical therapist today and she was very good. We travel on April the 1st and so the goal is to have Byron out of pain and able to handle the long hours of travel between here and LA. The therapist had Byron figured for sure...

"The problem with people who have a history of back trouble," she said, "Is that they are used to it and they expect it to get better if they push through and so they don't necessarily do what they should do to treat it."

Um, yes. That is the trouble. She held her tongue nicely and didn't come flat out and just call him a dork for not taking better care of his back. He's fifteen and half years post a very successful back surgery... and he should know a little better.

So, back to beautiful.

Tonight, I feel 2 things simultaneously. I feel deeply content after a 24 hour stay at the springs with people that I love. (Tait and Hunter made us all crepes with multiple delicious toppings for breakfast on Sunday.) But I also feel sad about Byron's back pain. He looked lively this evening for a while when he was excited about some very cool solar lights he was looking at that are designed to save Africa. But he soon faded again. I've tucked him in now with a hot pack.

Heat, rest, stretches, brisk walking, ibuprofen, cold packs if he wants them... these are his orders for the next few days. With prayer added, I think we've got the bases covered.

I'll put this photo up as his desktop to bring on the memories of a happy weekend. I'm certain those will be good toward the healing.